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Carrier: G-Ham pronounced "Jam". A grey palm sized hamster that really loves sunflower seeds to the point where it will stuff its cheeks even when it isn't hungry. Sometimes it may actually send a sunflower seed or two with messages simply because it doesn't want to empty its pouches. For the most part it's fairly well behaved... it's just lazy. Instead of running around it sits in Sonia's hair, nibbles on it and people watches for amusement. For some reason really likes the band Nirvana's music and will fall asleep whenever it hears it.

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[ Her expression doesn't shift this time, other than blinking once and canting her head a little to the side, she doesn't move an inch. Part of her wants to tell him, but in the end that is not only her decision either. Even if she's already let her friends down by breaking down through the hallucination in that forest, all she can do is hope that her words then do not come back to haunt her.

So she stays still, and says: ] Setsuna, I am a Princess of a Kingdom far from here, but I was never safe. Even as a child I was abducted twice as people wished for something from my country. I remained unharmed even during those times because I know what to do in a situation such as that. I am not as naive as people believe me to be.

[ A beat, then: ] Is that why you are worried?

[quaria]

Huh?

[ Suddenly, everything made sense. So this is the reason why Sonia's always giving him fake smiles, and why she's more concerned about others than herself; on why she's willing to hide everything, and instead focus on someone else's sake... Because she only thinks of herself as secondary, with her country first and foremost above anything.

Setsuna has met a princess who thought like this, too. As he thinks of her, his gaze becomes disoriented a little. His sight looks elsewhere even though he's still facing her... He thinks of Princess Marina, and how she did everything just for the sake of her country. Her safety didn't matter to her... And she was often concerned about him like this as well. He ends up speechless for a long set of seconds, wondering how he should deal with this from now on.

He doesn't want to be treated like this all over again. He doesn't want her to treat herself like that, either. But there's nothing... he can do...

He acted selfish once, and that resulted in her befalling in greater danger than she already was. He can't let that happen again... Not to Marina, not to Sonia. ]

No... [ That's not it. But now his heart is hurting upon the realization. He takes a small step back, still refusing to directly look at her. ] I apologize. I should not have...

[ He never should've asked her to go here. Why did he? He can't even... Why did he think he can help? Just because they had a nice time together once? Just because she smiled at him once? He didn't forget about what he is, but...

Damn it. This is why he told her that he's terrible company. This is exactly why he shouldn't be coming close to others at all! He has no capability to even cheer up a single girl!! ]

... Sorry.

[ Lowering his head, he's the first this time to turn around and dismiss himself. ]

[assent]

[ Of course her country was supposed to be first, but she already destroyed that. Granted, with that in mind she still can't help falling back onto the habit of it. Even during the Neo World program she told Hinata that despite being surrounded by her "friends" she did not feel like a regular girl. She may never be, simply because of her upbringing.

So she closes off her heart, raises her eyes to look at him head on. There's very little to give away how she feels this time, even if she feels like she's sinking in quicksand. This... This is the correct thing to do, is it not? Before he gets any further miscalculations of her or her character. He was not the danger here, after all.

It was not fair for him to believe otherwise. His gesture had been kind. More than he probably realises. He is a lot kinder than he gives himself credit for. ]

Perhaps that is so, but what is done is done. [ She glances away then, no smile this time. In fact, her face is oddly blank. ]

Farewell.

[ While he walks off though she just stands there a little while longer, trying to work out why it went this way. Then again, maybe she shouldn't dwell on it. A friendship like that, where he gave so much and she was unable to return the favour, how was that fair to him? ]