Day 12 date - Akechi

[assent]

[ The first library isn't exactly somewhere she wanted to go on a date--though it isn't because of the fact there had been a fire here but Other Reasons she doesn't plan on bringing up.

She brings blankets for the floor though, along with a couple of books from the other library which will hopefully make more sense once Akechi arrives. She's wearing a blue dress today, and again has her hair down simply because trying to braid it all the time on her own is Painful.

There is a bottle of water and a small carton of juice that she brought with her, though not much else.

While waiting for him to arrive she already has one of the books open on her lap and is reading it. ]

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[afailedmurder]

[immediately assuming he's done something to offend her, which translates into an awkward hesitance on his part]

Ah, I don't mind. I am interested in that sort of thing, after all...

[assent]

[ She glances at him now, thankfully oblivious to the fact that he’s aware of how awkard she’s being. It isn’t Akechi’s fault, anyway. It’s definitely her. ]

Would you like to pick one or shall I?

[afailedmurder]

[Nope. Clearly he's done something wrong.]

I'll leave it to you.

[assent]

[ Her hands tighten on the book for a moment before she places it down in front of her. ]

Um, before that. ...Is something wrong?

[afailedmurder]

No, not at all. I was only thinking that you seemed a bit... distant today.

[assent]

[ Okay keeping compusure was apparently a mistake but-- ]

I am a little distracted, my apologies.

[ Her fingers pluck at the edge of her dress before her hands clasp together. ]

Some things were brought to my attention and I have a lot on my mind, I was trying to keep it out of this though.

[afailedmurder]

[shifting in place]

...If you have something you need to talk about, I don't mind listening

[assent]

[ Her head lowers a bit at that, but he should still be able to see her expression. Her cheeks are a little flushed now, but it's just because of embarrassment. She doesn't plan on getting to that part yet though, so first-- ]

Mm, well part of it was that I found out the missing answers to the video you saw. None of which are pleasant.

[afailedmurder]

[leaning in attentively]

What happened?

[assent]

[ Trying to not. Lean back. ]

The scene you saw was after I was brainwashed with "despair". It seems as though my class was altered then... we were set free into the world to destroy it.

[ She shifts a bit now, not looking him in the eye because she doesn't know how he'll take it. ]

There were other videos on there, of course. The buildings were on fire, people were killing each other and themselves. I still do not remember any of it, but it... was true.

[afailedmurder]

Brainwashed...

[He meets her gaze, sad but taking it calmly.]

[assent]

[ Her gaze does lower slightly after meeting his, before her eyes shut. ]

I admit I cannot completely connect to it, however, as I cannot remember the incidents as a personal affair. I thought... it would be best you knew, however. Moreso with... ah. Something else Saihara-san told me.

[afailedmurder]

O-oh?

[shitshitshit what if he told her about my brainwashing powers]

[assent]

[ Thankfully n o t . . .

Though it's embarrassing. ]

He said-- ah. This is a little difficult to admit to. [ Here it goes! ] However, apparently you truly had meant that date before as a ... real date?

[ Akechi did you just get worked up for nothing. ]

[afailedmurder]

[This is so far off from the worst case scenario he doesn't quite register that it is embarrassing yet.]

Huh? Er... a date is a date, isn't it?

[assent]

[ Would Shuichi do that to you, Akechi? Really? ]

Not necessarily. I had been under the impression that you and Saihara-san were inseperable... I had no idea you both were actually trying with this. That is why-- [ Wow her voice just raised a bit there. ] --I wish to apologise now. It may be a little late, however... [ And then down it goes again. ] I feel as though it may be necessary.

[afailedmurder]

[And there it is: The little click of understanding that informs Akechi how embarrassed he should be. Unsurprisingly, the correct answer is "very embarrassed indeed."]

Ah. I see. That's... completely understandable. I should be the one to apologize for not explaining myself more clearly.

[assent]

[ She isn't even sure if she should bring it up but... you know, it's better to have said it than not said it when there's only a couple of days left. ]

You do not need to. It is just a shame I realised so late, that is all.

[ Which could be phrased better tbh ]

[afailedmurder]

So late...?

[a little hesitant to even ask]

[assent]

Um... [ Her hand moves to tuck her hair behind her ear, eyes shifting away from him. ] For one thing, this is nearly over, is it not...?

[ She is definitely hesitating too long on the rest though, because it's hard to do this in a way that won't make everything else awkward or upset him or anything. ]

For another, I...

[afailedmurder]

[Good news, this is already awkward and he is already upset.]

You don't have to explain.

I cant believe i did this on my phone it took forever

[assent]

[ idk what he expected tbh. He has months of experience on her with this. Besides, despite having a thing with both Allen and Rin she still hasn’t had much in the way or confirmation of their feelings so it’s... hard to know what to say with that in mind too. She doesn’t look happy—actually a little miffed—that he cuts in before she can get the words out. ]

Yes, I do. I do not wish to leave this place with the regret of not saying any of this, nor do I wish that you would never hear it. [ Time to extol some virtues!!! ] You are a wonderful person, after all. You are handsome, make me laugh and smile and despite everything you have been through...you are still capable of loving others. Perhaps the saddest thing is that had I known earlier I would have had an easier decision to make. As it is... both of us have someone else we care about a lot. Is it still okay to try making this into a real date if that is the case?

[ Unlike Akechi she doesn’t have the confidence in that security at all. Rip. This goes down as the second worst confession in history—right after what she told Shuichi tbh. ]

you are more dedicated than I

[afailedmurder]

[What else would he expect besides humiliating rejection? He can't even fully enjoy all these compliments while he's waiting for the other shoe to drop. By the time she's finished speaking he's so caught up in his own emotions and fear of rejection that he isn't even sure how he feels.]

Is it okay... with you?

i couldn't sleep .......

[assent]

[ Akechi please... it isn't like she wants this to be complicated either. She knows Allen said he was a little bit bothered by her having the date with him before though so it isn't something she can jump into without... considering things.

Despite that, neither of them have promised her eternal romance or whatever either.

And again there are like. 2 days. Left.

So. ]

...Yes. [ She lets out a breath, like trying to eradicate all the tension from herself. No turning back now, after all. ]

May I move closer?

[afailedmurder]

Please.

[His instantaneous response clarifies how he feels, though it's somewhat remiss in explaining why he feels so very very much, seemingly all of the time.]